Maybe, when we are at our lowest and feel as though we have nothing to say, is exactly when we have the most to say.  Maybe, we are afraid of being dismissed, talked down to, disrespected or diminished. Maybe, we are afraid of being shamed, wronged, laughed at or criticized. Maybe, we fear that our feelings will be invalidated or we will be condemned for having them.  Maybe, our feelings and thoughts were met with love, empathy and compassion at one time, but somewhere down the road, that person used those same feelings as weapons to hurt us. Maybe, it is a combination of these fears that prevent us from speaking our mind, talking about our feelings and sharing what is bothering us. It is my belief that we can only have these fears if this has been our experience when we have opened up and bared our souls to someone. How many times can we allow ourselves to be hurt and damaged by the thoughtless and uncaring responses of others before we decide to shut down, hide our feelings and pretend that we are “fine”.

How many times can we forgive and put our trust in someone, only to have that trust shattered along with our hearts?

Wonderful Words

“‎Learning to endure times of disappointment, suffering, and sorrow is part of our on-the-job training. These experiences, while often difficult to bear at the time, are precisely the kinds of experiences that stretch our understanding, build our character, and increase our compassion for others.
— Joseph B. Wirthlin
“The most basic and powerful way to connect to another person is to listen. Just listen. Perhaps the most important thing we ever give each other is our attention. A loving silence often has far more power to heal and to connect than the most well-intentioned words. —
Rachel Naomi Remen
“You can feel the whole world and still feel lost in it. So many people are in pain— no matter how smart or accomplished—they cry, they yearn, they hurt. But instead of looking down on things, they look up, which is where I should have been looking, too. Because when the world quiets to the sound of your own breathing, we all want the same things: comfort, love and a peaceful heart.” 
― Mitch Albom”

Saturday Sharing – Beautiful Words

“Happiness in marriage is not something that just happens. A good marriage must be created. In the Art of Marriage, the little things are the big things. It is never being too old to hold hands. It is remembering to say ‘I love you’ at least once a day. It is never going to sleep angry. It is at no time taking the other for granted; the courtship should not end with the honeymoon; it should continue through all the years. It is having a mutual sense of values and common objectives. It is standing together facing the world. It is forming a circle of love that gathers in the whole family. It is doing things for each other, not in the attitude of duty or sacrifice, but in the spirit of joy. It is speaking words of appreciation and demonstrating gratitude in thoughtful ways. It is not expecting the husband to wear a halo or the wife to have the wings of an angel. It is not looking for perfection in each other. It is cultivating flexibility, patience, understanding and a sense of humor. It is having the capacity to forgive and forget. It is giving each other an atmosphere in which each can grow. It is finding rooms for things of the spirit. It is a common search for the good and the beautiful. It is establishing a relationship in which the independence is equal, dependence is mutual and obligation is reciprocal. It is not only marrying the right partner, it is being the right partner.”

(HT: Catholic Marie on Pinterest)

My Surprisingly Peaceful Day

Today I could have spent a quiet and peaceful day at home all by myself, but instead, I decided to surprise my son and pick him up early from school.  I took him out to lunch and now he is sitting here with me playing a video game.  And believe it or not, I am still having a quiet and peaceful day.

He is not an easy kid to be around lately. In fact, some days, it’s impossible. At times, he can be disrespectful, obnoxious and mean.  I know it’s part puberty, part anxiety and part his environment. He feeds off of the mood he feels in our home, which at times, can be quite confusing for a child.  There is an underlying hostility here, and if I can feel it, so can he. So today was special for me. It was our time to be together, to talk and laugh and not be affected by anyone or anything.  He acted like the kid I have always known, the kid that I don’t get to see much of anymore.

My son and I have a strong bond, and I know the reason he takes a lot of his anger out on me is because he trust me completely. He knows my love is unconditional and he knows that I will never ever leave him or hurt him.  He knows that no matter what he says or does, I will always be here for him. But man, sometimes, he hurts the hell out me with his words and actions.  And even though I have been told by his therapist it is mostly displaced anger, it still breaks my heart each and every time.

So here I sit, watching the boy that I love, playing his video game and acting like a kid without a care in the world. My heart is happy today.

Lyrical Thoughts..

“Fix You”


When you try your best, but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I…

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Life and Lessons

” Your children will see what you’re all about by what you live

rather than what you say “

Wayne W. Dyer